can someone explain to me how my forehead got burnt when I was sitting in the shade with sunscreen on?

I feel awkward social situations. Part of that is I'm not a very good conversationalist. The other part is I just don't know how to put myself out there.

I was at Gianna's birthday party tonight. She just turned one! It was a lot of fun. Bunch of friends there I got to see that I only see like once a year. This part was fun... I'm usually okay in big groups, because there are other people around to lead the conversation. Ha. The part that was awkward for me was as people were getting ready to leave, there was talk of people going to see a movie. One of my friends was on the fence of whether to go, but decided not too. I was interested in going, but with out my friend I would have been the only girl with 2 married men and a single guy... none of which I actually hung out with besides a large group setting. This may not seem that big of a deal... though none of them asked if I wanted to go and I didn't want to just invite myself to go. I'm horrible with these things.

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I'm starting to feel better, finally. It was nice to get a full night sleep last night. Hopefully, I'll be close to normal by Monday.

ER visit #2

Yeah, I landed in the ER again. Asthma... great fun. I started having problems on saturday, it kind of hit me all of a sudden. Luckily, on saturday, I was around a friend who had a nebulizer. That saved my life until about monday afternoon. I was with Erin, and I texted the friend who saved my life and told her I wasn't breathing very well again. She told me to go into the hospital. So... I told Erin, and she graciously took me to the ER. Matt met us there. He was there for my last ER visit, and I wanted him there because he knew what went on my last visit since I don't remember any of it. Anyway, they gave me some steroids, coughing treatments, and an IV of more steroids. That hurt like h*ll, btw. Then they sent me home even though I wasn't feeling that much better.

Erin stayed the night, and I went to work the next day (tuesday). I had too. There are no sub tutors. I hung out with Jen tuesday night, and went to work on wednesday (yesterday). Should mention that I worked for 8 1/2 hours yesterday? I was called into the renton center. It would have been fine because I was only scheduled to work 2 hours... but they asked me to stay and extra 2 1/2 hours. I really have a hard time say no. So I said yes, which was not smart on my part. I went over to Jen's after work and we had some awesome, yummy pizza. I started having problems again, so Jen took me to Denise and Andrew where I stayed the night. Yes, I went to work again today. Again, no sub tutors.

I'm still not doing that much better. I had a doctors appointment today. They gave me a treatment, sent me home with an antibiotic, and a prescription for rental nebulizer. At this point in time, I'm hanging out with Danielle and waiting for my nebulizer to come. I really hope it comes soon, because again, I'm not doing that well.

I'm going to go lay down now.

It was a good fathers day for my dad. If there's one thing my dad likes, it's having my sister and I home. I got up on Sunday, and he asked if he could make me waffles. I wasn't going to say no. Haha. They were very good waffles too. :) After breakfast, we went bowling. Spending quality time with each other is almost unheard of in my family. It was really fun though. We played 3 game. It was a fathers day special that dads get to bowl 3 games for free. My dad and I both agreed that we should have stopped after 2 games. I did well my first two games, but tanked the last game. My dad was having back problems after the 2nd game and 3 games over did it for him... poor guy. Later that evening, we met up with my sister and her family and went out to dinner. We ate at this awesome Japanese restaurant that was very yummy. My sister had all different kinds of sushi. One was octopus... I'm not as daring as she is. I'm not a big fan of seafood anyway.

It's going to be a busy week for me. Tonight I had bowling... which I did really, really bad, btw. Tomorrow, I need to do a bunch of cleaning in my apartment. It's terrible. Wednesday is when the students that I'll be tutoring will be tested so we know what level to start them off on. Thursday, I'll be heading over to my parents again to help with my mother's dance recitals. I'll be there until Sunday... let me tell you, it'll be loads of fun. It's money though. Then I start tutoring on Monday... yay for being busy!

So that's my week. I may get around to posting again this week. I don't know... we'll see.

Sicky

I'm sick... bleck. I went to the doctor. Told me to take Sudafed and gave me a prescription nose spray. This treatment was actually more than I expected to get. The problem now is I'm starting to cough. If you don't know my history, let me say that this is bad. I have asthma that is triggered by allergies, sports, and being sick. When I start coughing, it's pretty much a guarantee it'll "turn on my asthma". If I don't get this cough under control, I could end up in the ER again. So I'm going to the asthma/allergist tomorrow. My cough has worsen over the day... that's partly has to do with I'm stubborn and don't like to stay in one place for long periods of time. Ha. I need to get my prescriptions refilled from the last time I was sick... about a year and a half ago. Usually if it's over a year, they want to check up with you.

My cat is so cute. She's sitting next to me sleeping. I want to snuggle with her... but she wouldn't like that. Darn un-snuggling cat.

Costas - Greg is the Man!

Yes, two posts in one day... as I said in my last post, I'm sick, so I have a lot of free time.

Yes, I promised an update of costas. So friday night was UCF's end of the year celebration at Costas. The other thing that was being celebrated was it's Greg's 10 year anniversary with UCF. Angie, his wife, had emailed a bunch of former UCFers asking for some inspiring thought of Greg, and to invite us all to Costas... which was a big surprise to Greg. It was kind of funny. Ron was making a speech, and it started with, "so Greg is probably wondering why we're all here..." Greg's parents, Angie, Gianna, brother, and nephew all came... so yeah, this was quite the celebration.

The part that was so awesome was all the people that showed up. Some people that I haven't seen in over 2 years! The list of people: Ron, Dan Segars, Paul, David Knaggs, Matt Halpin (and his sister), Jen P, Dan Ahn, Jessica, Vimal, (a couple of newbies that I don't know), Barbra, Amber and Andrew, Chad and Megan, Jae, Matt Jones, Dan and Stacey, KC and Hilary, Casey and her husband, Becky and Sean, Levi, and Niko! I hope I'm not forgetting anyone... Anyway, it was so much fun seeing and getting reacquainted with everyone! I stayed at Costas until 11:30pm.

Another awesome thing was... Niko being our waiter, we got HUGE discounts on everything. We got free drinks. We got free flaming cheese (per table). We got free desert, and free coffee to go with that. Because Niko was lazy, he rounded our bills down to the nearest dollar. So when my bill was probably about 18 dollars, it ended up being 10 dollars. I heard somewhere he made about 100 dollars in tips.

It was so awesome. You all should be jealous of me. :)

I'm sick. I have some sinus thing going on... not fun. Anyway, I was at the library today on the computer doing the job searching thing. There was this guy sitting next to me that I was having a sniffling competition with. I think he was winning, because he was getting his throat into it. Nasty.

why am I so tired? I really have no reason to be. Maybe I'm getting sick... I don't feel sick though. hmm.

I have a couple things I want to write, but I'm too tired, so I'll save them for next time.
One, is the night at costas.
Two, is thoughts on my weekend.

I'm sure there is more, but stay tuned for these posts.

My Day

So it's been an eventful day. This morning I woke up too early... I've been getting a knot in my stomach every time I wake up due to stress... anyway, Jen came over at 11am and we headed down to downtown seattle to the aquarium. It was pretty fun, and my favorite was the sea otters. The were sooo cute! Too bad I don't have a picture of them! Right... after the aquarium, we went up to pikes place market and walking around for about 45 mins. Not long enough... we decided we're going back some other time. After the market, we headed back to my house and watched an episode of cosby and an episode of monk. Both great show, btw.

During the TV watching, Adrienne texted me and asked if I wanted to meet with her for coffee. I said yes, of course, and we meet up at 7pm. We walked around the U-village a bit, then decided to go to Target (northgate) because she needed to get a baby gift for the baby shower she's going to tomorrow. After that, she was hungry... I asked if she's ever been to the california pizza kitchen, which is right across the street from target (in the mall). She said no... and I said, "we're going."

So now I'm full with pizza and tired. I think I'll go to bed. ;)

Moving on

It is hard doing things for the last time. For example, it was really hard to graduate from UCF. It needed to be done though. Everyone had moved on and UCF is a college group. Doesn't mean that I still don't have connections, memories, and friends. but it means that a chapter has closed in my life. The reason why it was so hard is because I didn't really have anything to move on too. I'm really working on that though... finding a job, figuring out where I should meet some new friends, etc. It's just hard. Really hard. I don't want things to change, but thing are changing right from under me and there's nothing I can do to stop it. The more I deny the changes, the harder it is. So yeah, I need to stop denying it and except it. Again, it's so hard.

I almost feel like I should move somewhere. I've had friends move to chicago, canada, idaho, california, bellingham, florida, arkanasas, oregon, yakima, shelton, japan... and now, I have a couple friends leaving soon for montana, princeston, spokane, tennessee, and texas. I guess this is what happens when people graduate college. I just haven't figured that out yet.... so I feel like I should be moving away. Not sure that's the right answer, but it's the thing to do! I'm still waiting for the fact that 'I can do what ever I want' to set in. What do I want to do with my life?... that is the question that I've been trying to figure out since I graduated HS. I've been told that I'm young and I don't have to have it all figure out yet. However, I'm not going to be young forever, and I'm certainly not getting any younger... thus more pressure on myself. I need to take it easy...